I have done a mistake but..... no idea when,how,why???
was it because of my stupidity?or maybe just for the love i had for him??
or did he use me for his benefit?........ was i blind folded by his sweet words? was i charmed? was this my fade or something which was meant to be???
Life just continues to give us too much of questions without an answer.. Some dies not knowing the answers.. When people used to hear me still with the same guy, they were amazed and proud of our love, our lasting,strong journey of faith and love yet.... no one knew what happened in between.. my mistake... I Cheated on him.... but than i realized life without him is as equal to life without my breath without my soul in myself!!.......
He accepted me back..... i stood by him, in his life in his every sweet happy moment, in time of trouble,sadness.... every single moment just name it... I WAS THERE!
We were so happy togetherd....... never did i do the same mistake again but i stood loyal towards
him... time passed by fast to quick for us to turn back a sec for i was working and he was studying.... until......
one fine day as soon as i came back from work and as usual i called him.......
it was terrifying.... i wished i never answered the call.... i wished i was dead that time...i wished this day never came!!
"i think its
time we go slow as things are getting serious... you have done a mistake before and i am afraid you will do it again"..
.
"but 'da' that was way long back ago!! 4 years ago... till now i have done nothing to hurt you, to cheat you,put you in trouble or to even make you regret for loving me!! nothing! why now you have this kind of thoughts after 4 years.....!!! what did i do!! please don't joke PLEASE!!'
"Rose i have a thought that maybe some where out there.... there could be some one better than you who could be a better life partner to me..... i am afraid that i might have made a mistake by choosing you in my life.. please don't get it wrong... the fear is killing me even when i still love you!! Rose i work in a hospital in a very respective and professional place.. maybe there could be some one else to make me happier in life!!"
"are you leaving me Kartick??? after 4 years now you think it could be a mistake being with me?? I cannot live without you Kartick!!"
"No!! No!!! Don't get me wrong... i don't want to leave you now... i want to mingle with people around me freely.. by this i could see if there are better one which will replace you or only you can suite my life as you have been all this 10 years together......!!! You will ALWAYS be my priority"
"Ok Kartick if this is what you want i will obey to it!!! I only want you in my life!! only you!!!
I know i am still there in you!!"
why did i agree to this.....?? why did he make this decision all the sudden?? whats behind this???
was i smart to say i agree to it for i know my love is strong or was i stupid to say yes when he was indirectly telling he does not wan me anymore!!!............................blank!!
i told all this to my best friend who actually turned furious after listening to all this!! He scolded me!! What am i To do.......
Wait for i have loved him so much or......
just leave for i know i am no longer wanted??..............
